it's no secret to my friends that i've had some issues with the company where i work for sometime now. i have given the company many opportunities to make the changes they continue to promise. i try to give the place where i work the benefit and hope for the best. silly in this day and age.
however, these past few weeks, more like months, have been odd and it's mostly in my office. i guess a bit of background is needed....
i work for a small home health company with two offices, the main office and the office where i work. twenty or so miles separate the offices, and both offices have different and wide territories. the main office is large and has more staff; where i work has been a smaller group of people.
great nurses have been lost due to management issues, three or four. i go and do my work and do what's needed.
a member of the non-nursing staff has been let go each of the past two weeks, a marketer and a receptionist. before them it was another nurse and a private services supervisor. yeah, exactly.
i have been with the company for over two years and i have learned and grown greatly during these years. i am grateful that they took a chance on me, since they did hire me after graduating from nursing school.
i gave learned quite a deal. in this time I have overlooked issues because of the experience i have gained through them, it is also why i have been patient. the past two yearly reviews have gone well and i accepted the small raises that really did not cover cost of living, thinking things would improve (foolish in retrospect). except this most recent review.
the reviews are supposed to be done on the anniversary of the hire date, but my supervisor didn't do it until after two months of the anniversary; she accepted that she forgot and we did go over the review in late fall. i was given a $1 raise and was informed by her and the HR director that it would be given to me retroactively to the anniversary of my hire date. two months later I have yet to see this retroactive pay.
every pay period i was hoping to see it in the paycheck, but nothing. finally, annoyed at all of this i went to the HR director and basically asked "wtf, where's the pay i was to by you and my supervisor i would get" and her response has varied. one week it was "we're working on it" and last week she even promised i would have it by friday. nothing.
friday came and there wasn't a change in the check. i called her on friday and left voicemail and messages for her to call me, which she didn't.
i called her today and after she found out who it was,she asked to speak with my supervisor. all I heard during those five minutes was my supervisor say "that's just not right." they spoke on the phone once more, after which my supervisor said that the chief operation office (COO) couldn't be reached to approve of the retroactive pay. wtf?
before my supervisor left, i asked her flat out what the issue was. her response was that the COO needed to approve, but that she (my supervisor) would just write me check for the amount i am owed, which i declined.
"no, that's not right. i won't take your check because the company owes it to me, not you. i also won't take it on principle." the supervisor then asked me if i would be quitting if i didn't receive it, to which i told her I didn't know yet. at least she now officially knows.
the more i've thought about it, the more i think it is time for me to move on. i have already spoken to a few people about job opportunities and may even have an interview soon. i'm meeting with another nurse friend tomorrow evening to discuss opportunities, and another friend mentioned the opportunities for clinical trial nurse openings which she'll let me know of...
this was a tough choice but i think it's time i move on. too much bull to handle. i had been very hesitant to consider quitting because i didn't want to be stuck with bills, rent, and car payments, as well as loosing my health insurance, but it's a risk i need to take. i am in a field where it's not tough to get a job, but this big step is scary. fuck it, it's time i take it.
the HR director is in my office tomorrow and she will be seeing me there. should i not end up getting the pay, i'll give my notice.
*deep breath*
all of this bull for $416 that i am owed.
anyway, i have been knitting socks lately and this is the pair i'm currently working on!
nighty!
